blackbird842

I'm lost Out to sea, treading water The fish pass by and ask "Can I help?" No, no, just swimming They say "don't worry, It gets easier, you'll drown soon." And my tears make the sea swell The shadows circle below me The sun beams and smiles My skin cracks and shrivels I drift farther and farther Pulled this way and that By the riptide you threw me into I dip beneath the waves I'm thrown about and drown a little I succumb and feel the blackness swell I thrash and reach the surface again I wheeze, I cough, I sob And I will never stop trying to reach you I will swim to your shore Or I will sink in your ocean

I feel like a monster torn apart from the inside out this emptiness is all-consuming stretched and ripped to fit your mold I'm trying to be what's needed to be what's expected I fill my days with running and screaming and they all look and clap and say "isn't she adorable!" I pull out my hair I cry and bleed and still the applause I'm a game, a toy, a novelty never having a real purpose I'm loved and cherished and cast aside for some new plaything with substance and I have no one to blame but myself I made myself hollow so you could fill me with life but you have no life to give for me. . .